All posts tagged: Life

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Dearest, In this world you will be derided for caring too much. Care anyway. It is a lonely world and there are many paths you have to take alone. Do not be afraid of the truth. The fights will not get easier, but you will be more ready for them. Bitterness is the aroma in every cup of healing. You have parted ways with being nice but found more: how to be kind. Remember to love your hands whether they are wide open or tightly fisted You will not always be able to find the words. Keep looking. Make peace with the night time. The moon is a whole other thing waiting for you. When the world expands, you will find it difficult to breathe. Slow down for a while. Teach your ears to listen for that which is unsaid. Grief is a kind of embrace. Remember to come apart. Hold it with your palms flat on your sternum, with your fingers on the collarbone. Try to find the lit windows at dusk, they will remind …

OOTD: Tamago

I’m in the final week and a bit of writing papers that will gesture my way out of the MA program for good. It’s exciting to be in the final stretch, but when each day is bookended by the number of words I put into the word document sometimes I just need a bit of time to remind myself of other things. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the things I can do once I am done with the semester, and I am tempted often by the many projects that I would love to get started on. I turn over those things in my mind, they remind me that I am a creative person and that the papers I am writing right now are one manifestation of that creativity. I want to hold creative processes as a formless blob in my mind, so I hopefully never box myself into a method, a medium or a product. If I am a creative person then any act I engage in has the capacity to be a …

OOTD: The Other Side Of Strength

Spring time for those caught in the academic grind is probably the most exhausting time of the year. The novelty of learning has worn off, replaced by the monotony of repeating class timetables, looming deadlines, and washes of fatigue.I no longer quite remember what I came to university to achieve, instead what I know is how many papers stand in between me and the end of the semester. Working back to back jobs for almost 2 whole years, stacking jobs on top of each other and also finishing up my Masters has definitely tested the ends of my capacity. I chose to shape my professional choices into this kind of life, but there are days where I feel the tiredness seeping all the way into the littlest parts of me. Some days I work toward the singular goal of a cup of tea and my music at midday, or a bubble tea in the evening and a couch potato session with an episode of something not in English. Simple things I use to hold on to …

OOTD: Change

My OOTDs are lagging by about 2 months, as I’m currently working a temporary full-time job to tide me over to the end of the summer. In other news, I got my hair done 2 months ago, and my hair has lost its dye virginity. 😛 I went for highlights that were layered mostly on the inside, with colours adding texture, but not significant enough to show clearly – mostly so that I wouldn’t have to go back to re-dye for a very long time. I adore this top from silence + noise. It’s a sheer white draping cross top that has an uncanny ability to reveal my belly button at the worst times, but it’s airy, dress up and dress down versatile, and very light. Sheer fabrics do this thing where they show but don’t show, and oftentimes creates a more interesting effect because they trigger a sense of curiosity on the receiving, and mystery on the part of the wearer, without you having to put much effort into it. Life seems to be a …

OOTD: Structure for a Lazy Day

Maybe it sounds counter-intuitive, but sometimes on the lazy days the perfect piece of attire is a stiff, structured white shirt. The fitted white button up is a staple to every wardrobe, almost seamlessly perfect in all its pairings, and for any occasion. That’s because it’s pretty much designed intentionally, to be this adaptable. A structured, well-tailored white shirt is pretty hard to make, and even more difficult to find though. For every body type, there is a different fit that works. For years I’ve been hunting for a white button up within a reasonable price range that I could add to my wardrobe after I outgrew my old one, but it was a good 3-4 years of fruitless searching. I was never satisfied with the fit around the chest, or around the waist, or the way the collar sat, etc. I like to to see my fabric of habits in a similar manner. Habits are not the easiest to construct, and there are many different fits for habits, unique to the people who have them. …