All posts tagged: fashion

OOTD: A Flash of Foresight

I have never been fond of orange and yellow tones. My wardrobe is an overwhelmingly cool – neutrals palette, from the black-white-greys to the blue-purples. A few years ago (in the era of the high-waisted skirt but before the crop top came back in), I decided I wanted to be experimental and bought a longer skirt that cut at my calves in a shade of orange I found bearable. It was a failed buy at the time. I couldn’t figure out how to match it to anything in my wardrobe, nor did I enjoy the way it sat on my body and the silhouette it created. I couldn’t really see it at the time and so I decided to throw it at the back of my wardrobe and forget about it. It survived multiple rounds of spring cleaning, I guess I felt that I had to wear it at least once before I donated it out, or that maybe someday I would grow into liking this length and this shape of a skirt. However many …

OOTD: The Other Side Of Strength

Spring time for those caught in the academic grind is probably the most exhausting time of the year. The novelty of learning has worn off, replaced by the monotony of repeating class timetables, looming deadlines, and washes of fatigue.I no longer quite remember what I came to university to achieve, instead what I know is how many papers stand in between me and the end of the semester. Working back to back jobs for almost 2 whole years, stacking jobs on top of each other and also finishing up my Masters has definitely tested the ends of my capacity. I chose to shape my professional choices into this kind of life, but there are days where I feel the tiredness seeping all the way into the littlest parts of me. Some days I work toward the singular goal of a cup of tea and my music at midday, or a bubble tea in the evening and a couch potato session with an episode of something not in English. Simple things I use to hold on to …

OOTD: Sometimes You Have to Grow Into It

When I was little I received a pearl necklace from my mom. I grew up in a region of China where freshwater pearls were a big thing, and as new arrivals to the country, my family went on tours to visit pearl factories that cultivated them, extracted them, and turned them into pieces of jewelry and other wearables. I had a single purple pearl necklace that I wore often, and a white seed pearl necklace that I never wore. Pearl strings remind me of my grandmother, naturally because she owns one. My memory of her often involves that string of pearls on the dresser, or around her neck; tiny little white orbs flashing in her ears, or on her hands. Pearls fascinated me, but I was always in two minds about them. Their iridescent sheen and natural ability to glow always attracted me, but pearls were not for young girls, they had a sophisticated old age to them – the product of time and process. I abandoned wearing even the single pearl necklace in my teenage years, …

OOTD(s): Black, White & Grey「黑白灰」

There are certain types of emotions that continue to throb in my daily living. I have always struggled with a conscious timidity, and a brash stubborn streak. The combination thereof is a living style that oscillates between trepidation, and bravado. It sounds dramatic, but it isn’t. It just feels like sweaty palms when I was 12, standing just outside the doorway to my new classroom and hearing the sound of my classmates to-be inside and wishing I was anywhere but there. It also feels like that moment of walking across the threshold, and clenching my fists. Life can be a series of repeats, same but different. Sometimes I feel my life is a revolving door: in and out of countries, of communities, of jobs, and of homes. I often strongly feel the temporary status of my presence, and am always anticipating the next reentry, the next exit, even as I try to embrace as much of the present as possible – to experience, and subsequently, to remember. Lately I find myself drawn to the same …

OOTD: Battle Suit

Lately I’ve been trying to intentionally push myself out of my comfort zone, which I admit has expanded quite a bit in the few years already. One of my biggest struggles is putting myself out there, and meeting new people. I tend to function much better in smaller, intimate settings, and often find myself disoriented, and very restless at large gatherings of people. I am most often at stasis, or going through my varying routines at my own pace, on my own terms. But I do feel that a part of my goals will be better achieved if I am able to put myself out there, in new environments, amongst strangers. I recently applied for a job that would let me do this. Propelled by responsibility, I will have to do it. To do something I don’t like to do requires a great deal of energy and mental self-psyching. I have three habits I follow whenever I have to do something like this, from interviews, going to an event, or public speaking etc. Dress well. …