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Record: Notes from Being Adrift


I have been tired.
I didn’t know how tired until recently.

Last December I flew out of Toronto back to Hong Kong, and after spending the winter holidays with my family, flew to Singapore for a self-imposed three month working holiday.

I spent much of the last three months alone (when not working), wandering the city of my birth, having all kinds of new and familiar experiences, in conversation with myself. Solitude was a gift I offered myself, and the freedom I carry on with me from that space is life-giving.

I have always been a person who cares a lot, and wants to be free from those cares in equal portion. This makes it difficult to fully care or to fully detach. Because of this, I find myself in limbo a lot, voicing one sentiment while feeling the tug of the exact opposite. On my best days, I am able to care with abandon; on my worst days, I feel angry that I have to care. I have struggled to reconcile this with myself as long as I can remember.

Solitude has allowed me to be completely present in my landscapes of care, and my thirst for freedom. In my aloneness I hear myself better.

I am not someone afraid to look back and say I was wrong or misguided. I think we grow into ourselves season after season in wonderful ways, and shed skin will always look inadequate in the light of our current vibrance. As I shed the last four years of burden intentionally, I find more strength in me to hold my cares and need for freedom in balance.

I am holding peace in the wonderful posture of solitude. In this peace the paradox is true, and what is true will guide me on my way.



Looking back at the speed I’ve been moving at over the last four years, I wonder why I felt the need to work so hard.

For many of us in the arts, grassroots, or who are self-employed, there is an omnipresent pressure to work more and work harder. It is almost as if, by sheer quantity, we can make up for the sentiment of devaluation directed at our work. As an Asian artist whose friends and peers are largely from STEM and business careers, I am relentlessly pursued by this anxiety, blindsided by uninformed assumptions, and discouraged by unintentionally harmful comments. Working alleviates this pressure, so I work from the moment I wake up till 2 AM in the morning, 7 days a week, throughout the year.

I guess if I mapped out the steps that took me here, it started with the need to make enough money so I could work other jobs that didn’t pay, but would help me along in my career. Fuelled by the need to be earning a certain amount, that amount increases with age, with normalized expectations of career climbing, with increased financial responsibilities. At my worst, I was working four jobs simultaneously, Monday through Sunday. That mindset has never left, even after I gained enough working credibility to be able to land paying jobs. It never feels like it’s enough.

My sleeping hours have, since early undergrad nine years ago, been highly irregular and few. My eating habits have fluctuated greatly and although I can be a great cook, I rarely indulge in that activity. Hours that were committed to purely social events were succeeded by an equivalent amount of makeup work hours. To be clear, it wasn’t about not knowing how to relax. It was about feeling the need to earn a certain type of respect.

I am not certain of the exact moment I decided enough was enough. All I know is that when my body began to feel actual rest, I began to recognize just how little of it I had given to myself. I have begun the process of learning from my 12-year-old self, who rose with the sunrise to have breakfast and take walks by the pond with her friends before school. Here are the things of consequence, Jasmine, you already know them. Hold them tightly.

I love my work, and will continue to work hard. But I am nurturing the contentment of a well-rested self. I am still practicing letting go of the anxiety of comparison, but as I practice, I succeed more often.



Since beginning Project 40 in 2015, I’ve changed in drastic ways. Instead of a defensive and guarded posture that protects an innate shy insecurity I’ve had since I was young, I have experienced the joy of connection and growth that comes with an attitude of openness and vulnerability. The past three years have been rich in conversation, relationship, and learning, but also, rich in inconsiderate demands and unrealistic expectations. Mediating different kinds of expectations and perspectives is just a regular part of running a collective, and remaining open to correction and direction is a responsibility built into the role. But it is easy for us, who believe in and yearn so deeply for a more just future, to demand the ideal in perfect wholeness and forget about the strenuous effort that goes into incremental change. I find myself harbouring that same impatience too.

Managing those conversations with grace and conviction means learning gentle firmness. That balance is something that is acquired through multiple failures, spectacular battles with the unknown, and many heart-to-hearts with the self.

More recently, I have also begun the practice of voicing my limits with other people. This is how far I can reach with what I have, please accept this. I too am dissatisfied and will continue to grow, but please understand.

I am cultivating another iteration of boldness — of soft heart and tough skin / yet / soft but resolute, tough but porous.

Dear me, be well and wonderful. Dear me, be loving and free.


image of hua tunan's Landscape art piece, made in 2016

Record: Art from the Streets

Featured Image: Landscape by HUA TUNAN

Last month I made my way down to the ArtScience Museum at Marina Bay to check out Art from the Streets. I was skeptical but also intrigued at this institutionalizing of an art form that has generally been traditionally anti-institutional.

I’m glad I took a chance because I was actually quite charmed by the collection, which features an eclectic mix of street artists from all over the world in a wide range of art styles and forms.

From top left (clockwise): La quête de l’immortalité, Gilgamesh by TAREK BENAOUM, Concise by REMI ROUGH, A State of Decline by SPEAK CRYPTIC, BP Liquidated Logo by ZEVS

My favourite pieces by far were the on-site pieces created by artists specifically for this exhibit. After all, my biggest attraction to street art is its vulnerable ephemerality. The flippant posture of street art toward its own destructibility has always seemed to me, the best resistance it can offer to the institution’s insistence on permanence. The power in refusing longevity for freedom is a magnetic kind of power, which funnily enough, drives more desire to prevent its eventual disappearance. Since these pieces were created right on the gallery walls though, the eventual teardown of the exhibition for the next one requires their destruction, albeit after lots of digital documentation. Or who knows? Maybe the gallery will cut out that section of the wall and archive it for the future. Either way, I dig the weird shuffle dance of ideology happening.

From left: Carved Wall, Shanghai by VHILS, Demolition, Forbidden City by Zhang Dali, The Wrinkles of the City by JR

I was also quite enamoured with the exhibited documentations of art carved from city space. Street art can wield a sharp edge of socio-political commentary, and when used effectively, creates a jarring and beautiful moment of space-making. These pieces are reclamations of the physical fabric of walls, not just by putting something over it, but also by taking something away or repurposing discarded materials. The celebration of this brand of street art in galleries and museums is particularly ironic when considering the legal implications of doing such work, especially in a place like Singapore. Imagine someone chipping away at an old HDB wall claiming a piece inspired by VHILS. The combination of these kinds of work plus the digital documentation around them make for an interesting thought exercise in art and its purpose, and could probably spiral downward into a Walter Benjamin-esque argument about art and its aura.

I wonder if Benjamin would have thought street art, art.

From top left (clockwise): Sitting Kid and Butterflies by JEF AÉROSOL, Middle East Mural and Obey the Giant by SHEPARD FAIREY (AKA OBEY), Shanghai Dust by LUDO

Another street art form I’m increasingly becoming familiar with is stencilling and wheat pasting, and there were pieces in abundance at the exhibition. These are beautiful, detailed intricate pieces that take much from fine art forms, but have been adapted for the speed and circumstances in which they are installed, as despite the increasing amount of sanctioned, legal street art, there is probably still double or triple the amount of unsanctioned illegal pieces out there. Stencilling and wheat pasting forms are often adapted for quick application but also require tedious and detailed prep work, and can also be mass replicated exactly, after the way of hyper-digital age aesthetics. I find these forms of street art have a particular resonance in our current zeitgeist, as they draw on the tensions of impermanence, reproducibility, and socio-political traversal simultaneously. I discovered LUDO for the first time and loved his pieces, which seem to be self-aware in exactly this sense, hybridizing technological and biological images in a garish green, steampunk-esque strain.

Overall, it was quite a satisfying walk through the gallery’s six sections, looking at pieces grouped together in different thematic strains and artistic interests. Street art has always maintained a teetering equilibrium between being countercultural and cultural. With presentations like these, how will street artists with various positionalities within the street art genre adjust themselves, and how will the next wave of artists negotiate with the institutions trying to draw them in? If we’re lucky, we might not have to walk into a gallery to find out 😛

Art from the Streets runs till June 3, 2018, at the ArtScience Museum


Decay Bowl Series [Clay]

The decay bowl series is an early ceramic experimental project I did, trying to simultaneously become familiar with hand-building techniques, creating conceptual vessels that gesture to urban indents overrun due to abandonment.

Bowl #1: Walled Field




Bowl #2: Bottom of the Well



Record: Kaohsiung & Kenting

Headed to the southern tip of Taiwan in December for a few days with my father and sister, and spent time in the port city of Kaohsiung and adjacent Kenting, which is a national park, and doubles as a top vacation spot during the summer. The off peak vibes were really interesting, and the weather as a moody mix of wind and sunshine. Here are some snaps from our daily walkabouts.

The most striking thing about walking about in urban spaces is spillage. Planned as they may be, city infrastructure and city dwellers never keep within the confines of the spaces they are allocated, and often the city itself shifts and moves with construction, creative traffic, legal and illegal extensions of private and public space.

I love the textures of urban spaces; they constantly remind me that life is sprawling and yet so unique to each inhabitant. Similarly, the life cycle of resort towns and tourist destinations is a fascinating oscillation. What are the systems of survival that locals in these transient places employ and utilize to continue to build lives for themselves? In off-peak season, I find these methods become more transparent and evident. It reminds me of all the different ways to live in this world, past the current trends of where to vacation, how to travel, and what kinds of travel services should be used.

Decay is a form of history. Grit is the residue of old stories. Sometimes history is monetized, and other times it is demonized. It all depends on the perspective being imposed on it. Regardless, stories of survival, of daily rhythms and habits are everywhere. I would like to bear witness to those moments, and reflect on my own way of living in return.