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OOTC: April

April is a month of tension and indecision. For every day of sunshine, there is another day of rain. For every warm afternoon there is a 10 degree drop waiting in the evening. For those in school it is a mad rush toward something like completion. For those at work, it’s a month of taxes, and allocating vacation. For writers, it’s here: the busy season of launches, events, new projects, and new publications. Since I became a poet, I’ve come to know more about hopes being given and taken than perhaps I’d like. Amidst the rejections from magazines, from workshops, from programs, from grant organizations, and the acceptances few and far in between, how do I nurture the words in me in order to continue? I’ve taken to reading poems out loud to my friends if they’ll let me: on the couches at home in the afternoon, at a coffee shop over dessert, after dinner with a cup of tea… I remember reading an article one day that explored the once-social norm of reading out loud, and …

OOTC: March

March just flew by. I feel like I was playing catch-up most of the time: catching up on deadlines, things I pushed back because last month was too busy, on sleep. To be honest I’ve been feeling a bit worn down, since September I’ve been feeling like I’m in a pressure cooker with competing life obligations, work responsibilities, social and communal expectations. Two friends and I had been planning a week-long retreat in March for a joint bachelorette event since the middle of last year, and we’d decided to take the Via Rail Trans-Canada train—obviously named “The Canadian“—to travel to Vancouver. It’s a four day three night trip across Ontario, Manitoba, Saskatchewan, Alberta and through the Rockies into BC. There is no wifi on the train, and data is spotty at best. Why this option for a bachelorette? Well, I mostly envisioned trapping my friends into a space where they couldn’t be too distracted and had to talk to me. hahahaha. To put it a better way, destination trips would have been busier with itineraries …

OOTC: February

Recommended listening:앞으로 by 김민승 (Kim Min Seung), from the Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Ju OST February was a strange month. The weather was in all kinds of minds and moods. It was difficult to find an underlying colour to describe February, but the weather, circumstances and the current rhythm of life I’m living made me think about what it means to be constant despite change. We are an inconsistent people. Flux is a part of who we are. But part of what it means to live in this world with other people, I think, is to shape some constancy out of ourselves. How to remain steadfast in days of yo-yo-ing weather, through the cyclical patterns of fatigue, frustration, and impatience? In trying situations, in crunch time, we give grace to those who might unintentionally lash out. As I absorb the sting, however, I am reminded also to be careful when I am the one with the power to hurt other people. How many times have I lashed out without thinking about the consequences? With age and …

OOTC: January

Recommended listening: Alpine by Linying included in her Paris 12 EP One of my habits as a poet is to attribute a colour to a collection, or a series of writing. This is an intuitive method I’ve used for a really long time to help me make editorial and syntactical decisions when I put a poem together. I’ve also talked about how photographing things is a method of notetaking for me. As a poet whose primary content is the “scape”, source material comes in all shapes and forms, collected in the environments and spaces I inhabit and move through. This year I am introducing outfit posts in the form of the #OOTC (outfit of the city). All cities are temperamental and seasonal, they change and adopt different postures over the course of the year in rhythm and habit. These landscapes for me are filled with certain kinds of colours and moods I try to remember, and reconstruct for different purposes when I write. I’ll be compiling a photo set every month with personal portraits styled …

OOTD: The Last

I’ve been thinking about this for a while now, and have decided this will be the last OOTD post on my blog for the foreseeable future. I first started doing OOTD blog posts because I wanted to affirm that the self was not a thing that was a formulaic list of compatible and complementary things. The labels that we often use to identify what kind of people we are, are boundaries that demarcate the places where we are always escaping our selves. This just means that I can’t even really begin to define myself in wholeness and completeness because there’s too much to cover. Isn’t that something marvelously wonderful, worth affirming and celebrating over and over again? I didn’t always think this way, and I think most of us don’t. Or we are afraid of what it means for us to be fluid, blobs, spillages. Labeling who you are is not a bad thing at all. Sometimes the labels allow us to leverage principles that we might otherwise find difficult to grasp. Sometimes the labels …