太理智的消費 對不對 成夜不睡
沒一句說的對 也很對 這個年歲
有愛的人不追 還鬥嘴 顯得般配
有時也為自己感到慚愧

Why do we work and for what purpose?
What do we hope to accomplish at the end of every day?
I think about this a lot, particularly when I find myself moving
in the mindless loop of a 9-5.

穿的也不算貴 黑白灰 儘量自費
被自己往裡推 動動嘴 也能後退
總會被動吃虧 不防備 深知有罪
我現在要開始表現傷悲和承認理虧

I’ve always been wary of the extremes. I don’t want to fall into the
way of imagining work as work and have it be demarcated strictly
from ‘the rest of my life’.

But I’m also quite certain that having your work be your “passion”
sounds like a false perspective.

人文和法規
其實都算是有理想啊
都是廢寢食忘啊
有深度有主張啊
難免會累會慌
難免也會迷茫

I prefer to take a more moderated approach I guess.
What I’m really concerned about is meaning.
What I’m really thinking about is purpose.
Why do I do the work I do?
What ends am I trying to achieve with this?

太理智的消費 對不對 成夜不睡
沒一句說的對 也很對 這個年歲
有愛的人不追 還鬥嘴 顯得般配
有時也為自己感到慚愧

Can I sit well with the fruit of my labour?
Can I tell myself at the end of the day, ‘yes I still remember why’.
Does it matter that I have to ask myself this every day?
Some days I feel so defeated at the distance between what I imagine I might accomplish
and how far away I feel from that place of possibility.

穿的也不算貴 黑白灰 儘量自費
被自己往裡推 動動嘴 也能後退
總會被動吃虧 不防備 深知有罪
我現在要開始表現傷悲和承認理虧

What happens when the answer is no?
At the very least, for me,
I think it is an indication that I am not following the rhythm of my season.
And then I have to make a choice.

How to live every step with a certain standard of integrity?
How to accommodate for myself when I’m weary?
How to wait the season out or change the rhythm of my life?
How to not get in my own way.

人文和法規
其實都算是有理想啊
都是廢寢食忘啊
有深度有主張啊
難免會累會慌
難免也會迷茫

Most days I’m still learning.

Posted by:jasmine

Jasmine is an editor, poet, and community arts organizer. She comes to poetry by way of Chinese music. This blog is a mapping of ways.

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