The cold season continues to stretch endlessly.

I set my eyes on this 90% wool overcoat at durumi the day before the New Year and couldn’t resist it.

I’ve been looking for down alternatives for years, and something as close to 100% wool as possible but within a reasonable price range. This was both.

The best thing about this coat is that its length falls right above the knee, therefore protecting the most vulnerable upper thigh from the cold, whilst at the same time, not being a length that will swallow up my tiny frame and 5’3 body.

The label on the coat says “Queen Rabbit” and it’s a pretty fitting title for a coat that makes me feel super boss through these volatile winter days.

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I’ve been trying to pick up the slack from where I threw it over the holidays, and class readings are beginning to accelerate.

It’s hard to juggle work and school when you feel that both seem to be growing you in so many ways. So many valuable insights and moments, so curvy of a learning curve. If I had rabbit ears that could swivel in all directions, the chances of me picking up on everything I needed to pick up might be higher.

People sometimes ask me how I do everything I’m doing, and it feels strange because I don’t always feel worthy of some of the opportunities that fall into my lap. It’s a tension for me too, to think about what I’m doing, whether or not I can do it, and then whether or not I should.

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2015 for me was a year of transitions and taking things by the fists.

2016 seems to be shaping up into a year of completely new types of challenges, and the chance to own my determination with my feet.

Having been in the throes of working, thinking, planning and whatnot, it’s hard to see the combined effort that looks a tiny little bit like you know what you’re doing.

But when I step back from my hands and my work, I occasionally feel a pulse of recognition at how much has been done and I take a moment to tell myself I am proud of me too.

I think we all need moments like that, to feel the settling of purpose in the mundane details of what we do day in and out. Even when we are not so sure, a simple thank you to yourself is a good way to rest.

So I’m taking on 2016 with a little more courage, boldness, and attention, like a Queen Rabbit… in a Queen Rabbit.

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All pictures by Jessica Chan

 

Posted by:jasmine

Jasmine is an editor, poet, and community arts organizer. She comes to poetry by way of Chinese music. This blog is a mapping of ways.

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