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OOTD: Fierce

There are some days where I question myself.

I question why I am doing the things I do, the way I am spending my time, the decisions I am making…
I question the type of person I am becoming, or the person I believe myself to be.
I question my relationships, whether they are slipping out of my hands, whether they are changing beyond my capacity.

It can be a mindless type of feeling, a day of dropping myself into my work to forget, or of nursing a cup of tea and blank staring.


For all my life, I’ve always felt a fierceness in me, a streak I couldn’t properly control as a little girl.
Now that I’m grown, that fierceness in me has settled into my character like bone.

It makes me stubborn, and has been a driving force behind every relationship and every endeavour in my life.

Fierce can looks gentle, the kind of firmness I would use to hold a little baby, the kind of firmness I step with to resolve conflicts with my family members.

Fierce can also look aggressive, uncompromising and harsh, a trait that often emerges in my work around social justice and postcolonial studies.


But mostly, I have come to see fierce as active, defiant self-love on the days I question myself.

Validation of my self as a person.
Strength I am slowly nurturing.

On these days I guard fiercely against reductive thinking, self-pity, and blanket thoughts.
I would like to walk in the light, to follow in faith, and to love in abandon. These remain even in my questioning, and my self-doubt.

So in these days, I give myself fierce grace, and rest.

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jaziimun is an interdisciplinary artist who works in text, paper arts and tea. She is also an arts programmer, and a ceramic hobbyist. She is also a proud bun mom.


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